Saturday, January 13, 2007


i'm here coz its'07 alr and lolita asked me to.

-- see how reluctant i was, its tedious to blog, i aged each time i do.--

i guess i'll blog a lil' nw, to ward off the evil spirits accumulated from '06.
i still can't believe its '07 and here i am, still bumping ard.

so, where do we go now?

oh yes, i had new yr resolutions, that were so promptly dismissed once the clock striked 12.
so i figured i wont bother thinking of any from now on.
i ain't a keeper. =P

life isn't excited, its all about feeding my own ass.
yes, its all about the money.
i think work is boring but i like the facts i gathered from it.
tell me its contradicting.
or maybe i should find some asshole n get hitched, have a dozen kids, be a haggard housewife, awaiting my kids/asshole's return from sch/work everyday.
like who doesn't have dreams and dream big?
its always this tough, its either you're undriven to pursue or marginally driven to pursue.

alrights, this entry's gibberish, considerably long incoherent gibberish.
i don't kw when i'll be on again, maybe '08?

yet again, who reads my blog now?


Sunday, October 22, 2006
i seeked and i found. i feel the all so familiar numbness. i guess it was my heart, it just couldnt stop aching. give me time, i've endless work to do, nothing can possibly break me now. and i'm closing this chapter. period.


Friday, September 01, 2006
I am happy, truely happy. It's the first weekday I woke to with open arms. All because my long awaited leave has finally arrived! I am so going to indulge in things I miss doing so much. Oh yes, it's parrrrrty time too!

Have I told you something you don't know?


Sunday, August 20, 2006
I closed my eyes to the sounds of the waves hitting the shore.
My tousled hair flew freely with the sea breeze.
Thoughts filled my clogged head.
My cheeks were glistening in the setting sun.
It had been so long.
Somewhere in my head, this little voice said.
"Let this be the last."


Sunday, August 06, 2006
it certainly felt like forever since my last entry. i am still alive and kicking so rest your worries loves.

i haven felt this messed up ever in my living years. it was so like my brains are in the wrong head, my limbs on the wrong body and my emotions from the wrong nerves. pockets of memories threaten to take the life out of me and so i dwell in fear, in grieve. i kw nt what i yearn for, what i've done and what'll be the future. it's all his fault. i am in such a mess nw and i kw nt hw to clear these up.

i've sinned, so much.

i miss me.